it has been so long since i dropped by here..
azim is now 6 months plus.. da besar da hehehe.. already about to crawl.. already eating solids (or should i say mushy food)..
ayra plak lagi 4 months will be 3 years old.. cepat kan??
so much have happened since my last entry.. pastu dengan bz giler dgn keje lagi nyer..
in a nutshell, alhamdulillah i would say ajoy and i are doing much better in handling a toddler and a baby now.. da berani tinggal both of them with ajoy while i go for zumba..
yep, i have started exercising again.. not on a frequent basis yet but at least da start la kan hehehe.. dia nyer kekok nak get back on the groove tu jgn citer la.. but yg penting to me is at least peluh..
6 months post pregnancy, i am not happy with my body. esp the tummy department. semua tempat da muat tp bila nk pakai button stuck kat situ. lagi 1-2 inches jer lagi!!!
ok back to citer anak2.. there is something that i really miss.. breastfeeding. with ayra, i breastfed her until she was 1 y 9 m. tu pun stop pasal pregnancy. but with azim, we stopped when he turned 5 months. kenapa? byk factors. one of them sbb azim himself rejected me. totally turned himself away from me with all his might. mmg sedih. but what to do, who am i to question Allah's plans for us. betul tak? (this also goes to mothers who loves to judge other mothers yg tak bf.. why oh why do u ladies do this to one another.)
so yeah. i do miss breastfeeding. i miss the benefits that comes with it, when we go out tak yah pening fikir susu, air, bottle, etc. when we go out tak yah risau about feeding time sgt. tp tu masalah kecik je sbnrnyer. what i miss most is the feeding and watching him feed part. nothing beats that with bottle feeding. :(
as for ayra, approaching 3 yo ni alhamdulillah she has grown to be a beautiful person inside out right before our eyes. she is one loving sister. sharing toys, however is not in her system yet. but other than tat it is a joy watching how much she loves azim. there is something else that is pending with ayra - potty train. ntah bila la nak start ni hihihi..
ok what else? oh.. contraceptive. i really wanted to use iud. called hospital umra and they said their stock will only arrive in june. price pun ok, within rm150 - 200 je. whereas sjmc is around rm500-600 (no surprise huh). tak berani nak tanya demc, sbb diaorg kan cekik darah skrg. anybody else knows anywhere else yg boleh buat iud within umra's price range? please pm me k.. for now, i am on birth control pill until i can get an appointment with umra.
been reading up on the procedure. takut tapi kena buat jugak la because m not disciplined bab2 ubat ni. and i need something with very little hormone since my body responds greatly to hormones. i hate my body's respond to hormone. they make me super fat.
ok la.. panjang dah rupanyer.. hehe.. bye..
