been so long..

it has been so long since i dropped by here..

azim is now 6 months plus.. da besar da hehehe.. already about to crawl.. already eating solids (or should i say mushy food)..

ayra plak lagi 4 months will be 3 years old.. cepat kan??

so much have happened since my last entry.. pastu dengan bz giler dgn keje lagi nyer..

in a nutshell, alhamdulillah i would say ajoy and i are doing much better in handling a toddler and a baby now.. da berani tinggal both of them with ajoy while i go for zumba.. 

yep, i have started exercising again.. not on a frequent basis yet but at least da start la kan hehehe.. dia nyer kekok nak get back on the groove tu jgn citer la.. but yg penting to me is at least peluh..

6 months post pregnancy, i am not happy with my body. esp the tummy department. semua tempat da muat tp bila nk pakai button stuck kat situ. lagi 1-2 inches jer lagi!!! 

ok back to citer anak2.. there is something that i really miss.. breastfeeding. with ayra, i breastfed her until she was 1 y 9 m. tu pun stop pasal pregnancy. but with azim, we stopped when he turned 5 months. kenapa? byk factors. one of them sbb azim himself rejected me. totally turned himself away from me with all his might. mmg sedih. but what to do, who am i to question Allah's plans for us. betul tak? (this also goes to mothers who loves to judge other mothers yg tak bf.. why oh why do u ladies do this to one another.)

so yeah. i do miss breastfeeding. i miss the benefits that comes with it, when we go out tak yah pening fikir susu, air, bottle, etc. when we go out tak yah risau about feeding time sgt. tp tu masalah kecik je sbnrnyer. what i miss most is the feeding and watching him feed part. nothing beats that with bottle feeding. :(

as for ayra, approaching 3 yo ni alhamdulillah she has grown to be a beautiful person inside out right before our eyes. she is one loving sister. sharing toys, however is not in her system yet. but other than tat it is a joy watching how much she loves azim. there is something else that is pending with ayra - potty train. ntah bila la nak start ni hihihi.. 

ok what else? oh.. contraceptive. i really wanted to use iud. called hospital umra and they said their stock will only arrive in june. price pun ok, within rm150 - 200 je. whereas sjmc is around rm500-600 (no surprise huh). tak berani nak tanya demc, sbb diaorg kan cekik darah skrg. anybody else knows anywhere else yg boleh buat iud within umra's price range? please pm me k.. for now, i am on birth control pill until i can get an appointment with umra.

been reading up on the procedure. takut tapi kena buat jugak la because m not disciplined bab2 ubat ni. and i need something with very little hormone since my body responds greatly to hormones. i hate my body's respond to hormone. they make me super fat. 

ok la.. panjang dah rupanyer.. hehe.. bye..

azim's eczema

the last time i posted in this blog was about 2 months ago rupanya.. 2 months ago azim's eczema was very mild, only at lipat2 leher and his elbows.. however now, his eczema is much worst than ayra's. ayra's eczema kat pipi je kan.. azim punyer, pipi mmg ada, for now takde la besar mcm ayra nyer.. mata dia pun merah2.. telinga dia pun merah2.. and badan azim pun merah2 esp kat perut dia.. his arm kering merah2 esp kat elbow dia.. his leg pun sama esp kat betis dia.. and scalp area dia pun.. his back pun mcm da start.. haa nampak tak.. basically almost 60% - 70% of his body!!! 

ya Allah hati ibu mana tak meruntun tgk muka n badan anak dia merah sana, merah sini.. 

sblm ni pipi dia je merah so we tried ezenide je sbb other body parts takde pun.. as for products we were using sebamed baby products for azim.. tp bila last saturday tgk makin teruk lengan dia, terus kitaorg gi beli moogoo. why moogoo? bcoz moogoo worked for ayra dulu.. so try je la dulu kan.. kalau tak ok gak baru tukar cetaphil or buds.. 

pastu selama ni basuh baju dia skali dgn kitaorg.. so last weekend we washed everything including bed sheets and tempat alas azim dgn mild detergent yg meant for baby tu..

as for food so far food yg trigger eczema bila makan or tak makan mmg takde effect on him.. kiranyer kitaorg satu family ni bukan food allergy, tp allergic to environmental allergens such as dust, heat, detergent, etc. 

tpaksa la sabar kan, the first year ni mmg duit byk kuar to find the right product for azim.. exactly mcm masa ayra ada eczema dulu.. 

lagi satu kena la sabar dgn soalan2 sedara mara n org2 lain bila jumpa azim.. kalau time ayra yg ckit kat pipi dulu pun mcm2 remarks dgr, ni kan si azim.. dulu time ayra ada org yg tuduh i dont know how to jaga anak pun ada *cries a bucket*. harap2 this time takde la org ckp camtu.. sape yg nak anak dia sakit kulit mcm tu oiiiiiii... uwaaaaaa...

Confinement - 2nd time around

When I first had Ayra, i did my confinement at my mother-in-law's house.. Ramai jugak yg kepochi tanya kenapa tak pantang at my mother's house? The answer - because my mother mmg x larat becoz she is not well.. Xyah kut tau detail sakit apa plak kan... Hikhik..

For the 2nd pantang, i've decided to pantang at my own house sbb xnak susahkan both mothers.. But i know i might not have the time to prepare my meals, takut 2nd baby ni mcm ayra dulu.. Dulu nk makan pun kdg2 x sempat.. Mkn kuih raya n choc sahaja pun pernah... That is why i decided to look for confinement lady yg bleh urut n also cook confinement food..

My usual avenue to obtain such info is fb.. M sure my friends can refer me to a good and affordable service, furthermore since its a referral maknanya the service is reliable betul tak... I dont really fancy googling for these info and ended up disappointed plak nanti.. Esp when this things are not cheap.. Bayar sendiri from my own paycheck tau!!

So alhamdulillah sgt after calling and going through numerous suggestions from my fb friends, i found my match.. Tq so much for all the suggestions..

I went with Makcik Siti, suggested by Jaja, my friend Jina nyer cousin.. And because Makcik had to cover her sedara at PD, makcik amanahkan her daughter Eila to take care of me.. I knw i dont have anything to compare it with but i think Eila did an excellent job.. I can only compare the urut part la.. Dulu time ayra urut 3 hari je, dgn kakak lain...

Sbnrnya i am quite scared of urut2 ni.. Sbb most ppl buat sakit giler since i hv a lot of angin dlm bdn.. Usually nak sgt urut tp selalu takut sbb usually i will end up throwing up or in pain.. But with Eila alhamdulillah i enjoyed it.. X sakit langsung! Bdn mmg rasa best...

And of course since amik skali dgn masak, at least i dont hv to cook for lunch n dinner.. Relax la ckit.. Dulu kat umah MIL pun xyah masak gak hihi tp kesian la kat MIL kan...

Ramai yg tny, CL dtg pastu dia buat apa? Pagi2 dia dtg and prepare my bath and starts to cook.. While m bathing (mandi herba), usually she is still cooking.. Pastu when m done usually she is done too.. Then mandikan baby.. Lepas tu baru start urut n tungku.. Pastu CL balik... This takes half a day..

I wouldnt say i relaxed most of the time.. Since pantang kat umah sdri means the household chores still kena buat... Like washing the dishes, sapu umah, lipat baju, etc.. Thank god for coin laundry, washing n drying the laundry is keje Ajoy.. Kalau cuci sdri nk kena sidai n angkat plak lg kan... At least 2 of the chores yg x elok ibu bpantang buat tu i dont hv to do hehe..

So today is the end of the 14-day package i took.. Da 30 days pantang dah pun... Cepat giler... I have 2 more weeks of confinement left... Yippee!!! But that also means maternity leave is ending soon too... *weep*

Tp satu benda yg agak bangang is i forgot to weigh myself b4 start pantang... So i dont really knw how much weight ive lost hahaha bongok kan... Takpe la, yg penting the weighing machine shows a decreasing number day by day... Ckit pun jd la... Arghhhh susah betul nak turunkan berat n inches after pregnancy ni..

So ok... Signing off now... To those who will be giving birth soon, enjoy yr pantang!!

i am NOT a supermom..

handling two babies who wants my attention at the same time is not easy. especially when i am alone with both of them. no ajoy. nobody else at home - just me, ayra and azim. whenever azim wants to nurse, many2 times that is the exact moment ayra wants something from me - hug, dukung, pokpok, susu, or anything just to gain my attention. i feel for her, i yearn to give her exactly what she wants but i cant. i am glued to the couch with newborn glued to my breast. 

i am really2 trying to keep my cool but sometimes i just cant. i dont know how mothers in my situation keep their cool. sometimes i try so hard not to scold ayra but it is not easy. ini lah ujian Allah to me kan.. most of the time, i ended up crying asking ayra to understand the situation, asking her to just be patient and wait until i am done with azim. sometimes it worked, sometimes no. 

maybe some do not know this, for the 2nd confinement, i've decided to do it at my own house. tak nak susahkan my parents. engaged with confinement lady for 14 working days.. she will cook the pantang food and urut and stuff, and stays from morning till noon je. so from afternoon onwards, i will be alone with azim, if ayra goes to her babysitter. usually during weekends je la i have to handle them both on my own plus cooking and other household chores. usually ajoy has to go out for his work. sbb tu byk kali i ended up alone with both babies. and that is when all the drama starts too. 

lately as well, ayra does not want to go to her babysitter's house, she wants to stay with me. but with ajoy being away, and ayra at home with me, will immediately send me into the phobia mode. i know how ayra is when ajoy is not around. 

again and again i found myself overwhelmed with everything and i ended up crying. sometimes ayra will come and hug me as if telling me she is sorry for being difficult. sometimes she will be in the room crying (because she wants me to be with her in the room), and i will be outside crying while feeding azim.. 

is this called postpartum depression??

is anybody out there in the same position as i am? or was in the same shoes?

how on earth do you handle both clingy babies and not explode and scold the first born?

the last thing i want is to scold ayra. will this phase get better?

with this being said, i cringe when some ppl say i am a supermom. i am not. not even near. a supermom wont break down and cry. a supermom can handle this with ease, and not even naik suara ckit pun to her first born. i am not her. i am weak. sometimes i feel like a failure. like i dont know how to do this motherhood thingy. 

those with maid/mom/mother in law/family member around to help please dont say u understand what i am going through. because that just means you are NOT alone with your children. you have help. i know some of my friends who are in the exact same shoes as i am. esp those yg husband kerja jauh or husband mmg selalu takde kat rumah. tell me how u're handling your situation.. thank you.. ^_^

2nd elective cesarean, but different experience..

as mentioned in my previous post, i had azim through elective cesarean and the experience is different from what i went through with ayra..

i would say the same thing was fear. cesarean is a major operation. elective or not. anything could go wrong during this major operation. i was also scared shit about the spinal anesthetic. i hate needles. i mean who doesnt kan. 

so when i was prepped for the spinal anaes, i was really really scared.. with ayra, i remembered being injected 3 times. and i was knocked out almost immediately. i was in a deep sleep throughout the whole operation until someone woke me up to tell me she is going to push ayra from the top of my tummy and when she told me ayra's umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck. 

this time around, i only felt 2 injections. i kept on zikir and hugging the nurse in front of me. it was really really painful. i cant imagine how an epidural would feel like. and then i was waiting to fall asleep. but i didnt. i kept asking myself bila nak tido ni.. to my horror, i could see the reflection of what they were doing to me through the operation lights. stories of my friend's czer experience of this particular moment flashed through my mind. all i could think of was "so this is what they have been telling me. the reflection. omg, what is that. omg ok they are cutting me now.." so throughout the whole operation i kept glancing at the light and quickly looked away. the only time i really looked was when the surgeon told the anaes doc and head nurse to push the baby. watching azim came out, and hearing him cry made me cry. i didnt cry with ayra because i was too high hahahaha!! and then when azim was out, i immediately looked away because i saw blood and heard the surgeon said "suction.. suction.." a few times. i did not need to hear that!! m such a coward hahaha..

anyway i only found out they changed the painkiller right before the stitching work. i fell asleep and woke up and fell asleep a few times until they were done stitching. 

but what i was a bit disappointing to me this time was they did not show my baby to me. they didnt tell me anything about my baby. time ayra ada jugak tunjuk sekejap before they took her away. 

when i had ayra, i was so out due to the painkiller they gave me that i was hardly present after the operation. with azim, i was feeling much much better. experienced shivering profusely right after the operation, which i didnt experience with ayra because i was so out of it. but, at least i didnt vomit and i could entertain visitors after my operation hehe.. 

day after the operation is another fear. to get up from the bed and go to the toilet. i remember during ayra's time, the bed had to be at the lowest height and i was holding on to ajoy sooooo hard i think i could break his arm.. and it was really hard for me to walk too.. terbongkok2 and very2 slow.. and the thought of getting off the bed again during ayra's time really scared me. suprisingly alhamdulillah i would say this time it was a lot easier for me to get off and on the bed.. 

of course having some ease in certain things would also mean mesti ada benda lain yg tak berapa best hihihi.. unfortunately my darah nifas did not flow. so the nurse had to shake my tummy. yes, with my very newly stitched uterus. and she shook hard. it was so painful i felt like slapping her! but i persevered because i know she was just doing her job.. tahan je la.. *sob sob*

before i was discharged, nurse came and told ajoy and i that we have to inject me 5 consecutive days, twice a day with blood thinner med. we were like woahhhh what??? takde pun time ayra.. apparently KKM made it compulsory to prevent blood clot incident in czer patients. so the nurse taught us how to administer the injections at home. scary giler siot.. 

tp when we arrived home baru perasan the needle to "pull" the meds was not included.. day after day ajoy tak sempat sempat nak pegi umra amik that needle until our appointment to remove my bandage came. alhamdulillah doctor said i dont have to do the injection because i was moving a lot. so blood clot may not happen to me insyaAllah. nasib baik jenis tak reti duk diam hahaha.. with boundaries of course.. jgn marah aina k.. 

ok tu je nak citer.. azim da bangun. nak susu dah.. (takde reason lain kan.. hahaha..)

ok bye..

our 2nd child and why vbac did not happen for us..

assalamualaikum everyone..

finally, our baby boy has arrived.. 

and we named him Azim Shazad bin Azrul.. 

panggil Azim jer..

on my last post, i mentioned wanting to try vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean). i had to have elective czer for ayra because she was a breech baby.. so for my 2nd baby if ada rezeki baby tak breech mmg nak try vbac.. and alhamdulillah for us, baby mmg da turn, kepala kat bawah.. tiap2 kali check up mmg position dia kepala kat bawah.. 

however, as human being we can only plan and doa and hope for the best.. on my 40th week check up, doctor did the ultrasound and told me this:-

1) my uterus wall at the previous scar is really thin. she showed me how thick a uterus wall should be (she scanned other parts of my uterus), and then compare with the one at the scar. it is definitely thin. like 1/4 of how thick it should be..

2) jalan mmg tak bukak. langsung. kepala baby jauh lagi..

3) i have high blood pressure..

4) air ketuban da kurang..

5) i have asthma..

so with all these 5 reasons, even if i was induced, i might not dilate gak. and if during the process my bp spiked up, or my asthma triggered, kena jugak emergency czer. if in the process air ketuban makin kurang tp jalan still tak bukak, kena jugak emergency czer. and lets not forget forcing the baby out might cause my stitches to rupture sbb dinding uterus tu da nipis sgt.. 

as much as i wanted to have a normal birth like everyone else, i have to think about my baby's life and mine too. is it really worth going through all the complications knowing my chances to have normal birth is so low? is it worth it going through all that and ended up going for emergency czer, which is riskier than elective czer? 

therefore, i opted for elective czer to give birth to my baby boy.

i guess my children likes to kuar ikut tingkap hahahaha.. 

so even though the method of giving birth is the same as Ayra's.. the experience is totally different.. yang tu nanti la citer.. Azim nak susu dah.. hihi.. 

bye for now!!

not long now..

the last time i posted about my pregnancy i was 22 weeks.. well m 35 weeks now.. time flies! tau2 je nak masuk 9 bulan da.. 

at around 6 mths pregnant i've opened up the famous buku merah/pink from klinik kesihatan and alhamdulillah my baby's head da turun.. however the next month's check up was a different story.. baby was breeched - with position exactly like ayra's.. and time ni doc said baby can turn but most likely not.. 

but what made me went to open up the pink book this pregnancy (time ayra tak bukak pun), was because during my 5 mth check up, the doctor at hospital umra told me umra's policy was to perform czer operation on a previously czer-ed mum - regardless of the position of the baby. so baby engaged ke tak umra tetap akan czer bcoz it is the hospital's policy. so the good doctor told me to open up the pink book and look for other options if i want to have vbac (vaginal birth after caesarean) or in layman terms - nak bersalin normal after czer. 

i tried going to salam specialist hospital after finding out that they do perform vbac.. there are other hospitals in shah alam that does too such as demc and kpj shah alam tp faham2 la kan, mahal giler la.. so those 2 hospitals are not in my list. masa kat salam la i found out baby was breeched. i also have my reasons kenapa tak choose salam je to give birth..  

anyway, the next check up was for 34 weeks. wanted to go to KK again initially, because i thought we have to have at least twice check ups kat KK for us to be eligible to give birth at govt hosp, and also nurse at KK will set an appointment with doctor at a government hospital near us or something like that la.. however i was very unfortunate because the queue at KK was super long, there were sooooo many people there even though ramai advised me to go petang sbb tak ramai tp hari tu mmg ramai giler!!! and i ended with a migraine not long after i waited for my number to be called. took my book back from the nurse and went to umra. 

upon leaving KK, i called PPUM to request for an appointment but again rezeki wasnt on my side, nurse yg jawab tu garang giler and said "dah penuh, cari hospital lain." when i answered her question on when my due date was. ok fine. tu yg pegi check up kat umra tu. at least i knw the status of my baby kan. 

alhamdulillah, baby turned and quite engaged. doctor said most unlikely to turn. so kalau nak vbac it is time to search for other options. the next appointment with umra is next 2 weeks, so by the next 2 weeks, i have to make a decision - vbac at other hospital or elective czer at umra.

this is the reason munculnya list of hospitals tue.. whole day i was calling hospitals and asking about their delivery package/cost and if they do vbac. 

alhamdulillah, we may have found a hospital. dah pegi jumpa doctor at that hospital.. she also said most unlikely baby will turn (to breech position). success rate pun tinggi insyaAllah. apa pun semua di tangan Allah, kita hanya merancang kan..

semoga semuanya dipermudahkan.

please pray for us.

thank you..

^_^

list of hospitals

since i was scouting for hospitals, i have compiled a list of hospitals around the area of shah alam, klang, pj, subang and damansara.. and those with package is for single rooms only. mana la tau if it will be beneficial to you ke kan.. :)

shah alam & klang

1) hospital umra

• normal : RM 2,499
• elective czer : RM 4,999
• package is for executive single room inclusive of nursery. tp at umra ni usually tak masuk food tau. dulu time ayra i had to pay extra rm30/day for food. but at least they have microwave and mini fridge in this room. so bole bwk food dr rumah n heat them up..
• does not practice vbac.

2) darul ehsan medical center (demc)

• normal : RM 3,800 - RM 4,500
• elective czer : RM 8,500 - RM 11,000
• nursery charges : RM 800 - RM 1,000
• inclusive of room & board 
• practise vbac

3) kpj shah alam

• normal : RM 4,000 - RM 5,000
• elective czer : RM 10,000 - RM 15,000
• room, board & nursery included
• practice vbac

4) salam shah alam specialist hospital

• normal : RM 2,499
• elective czer : RM 6,499
• includes room, board & nursery
• practice vbac

5) hospital bersalin razif, klang

• normal : RM 1,600
• elective czer : RM 4,500
• includes nursery
• single room: RM 200/night
• practice vbac

subang jaya, sunway, ara damansara

1) ramsay sime darby medical center, subang jaya

• no package
• normal : deposit RM 5,000 - RM 6,000
• elective czer : deposit RM 6,000 - RM 8,000
• inclusive of nursery
• room & board for single room is RM 220/night

2) ramsay sime darby medical center, ara damansara

• no package
• normal : deposit RM 5,000 - RM 6,000
• elective czer : deposit RM 6,000 - RM 8,000
• inclusive of nursery
• room & board for single room is RM 250/night

3) sunway medical center

• normal : RM 5,000 - RM 7,000
• elective czer : RM 8,000 - RM 10,000
• room, board & nursery included

petaling jaya, damansara, kelana jaya

1) columbia asia pj

• normal : RM 2,488 (2D1N), RM 2,888 (3D2N)
• elective czer : RM 7,000 - RM 10,000
• nursery : RM 599 (2D1N), RM 799 (3D2N)
• room & board for single room is RM 195/night

2) kelana jaya medical center

• normal : RM 2,290 
• elective czer : RM 6,990
• inclusive of nursery
• room & board for executive room is RM 30/night

3) tropicana medical center

• normal : RM 3,000 - RM 4,000
• elective czer : about RM 8,000 
• room, board & nursery included
• practice vbac

4) pusrawi kota damansara

• normal : RM 3,000 
• elective czer : about RM 5,000 
• room, board & nursery included
• vbac not sure, must get doctor's consultation first

5) hospital assunta, pj

• normal : RM 3,500 - RM 4,000
• elective czer : RM 6,000 - RM 7,000 
• nursery : RM 1,000
• single room RM 220/night
• vbac not sure, must get doctor's consultation first

6) university malaya specialist center (umsc)

• normal : RM 4,000 - RM 5,000
• elective czer : RM 7,000 - RM 8,000 
• inclusive of room, board and nursery
• pro-normal delivery

ok good luck mommies!!

ayra tantrum tak? clingy tak?

ayra tantrum tak? ayra clingy tak?

these are questions often asked to me now that i am pregnant with baby no. 2..

tantrum is very synonym with toddlers kan? so honestly i dont know if her tantrums now is due to the pregnancy, or it is just her normal phase now..

clingy? she is already clingy by nature. so yeah, super duper clingy now.. but i did read from babycenter that this is normal for toddlers around ayra's age too.

having said that, there are times when ayra was really testing my patience. hey, i am no saint. but i try to be very patient with her. nevertheless, that does not mean my husband and i dont discipline her. she knows when she does something wrong. and we make her say sorry when she does. and made sure she knows what she did was wrong. it is not easy. this takes patience and perseverance. we know now how difficult it is to discipline our child(ren). if we give up, mmg budak tu akan naik tocang la, knowing we are not consistent kan.. 

still on the topic of clingy-ness and tantrum, this also shows that ayra wants attention. i personally found that whenever she acted up, and i put all my attention towards her, gomol her, tickle her, she will be smiling away and be soooo happy.. so i learnt through experience on how to handle her tantrums rather than scolding her and asking her not to act up. from my readings, rupanyer kalau marah2 dia nanti lagi anak kita ingat kita tak sayang dia.. 

speaking (or writing) honestly, the nearer my due date is, the more scared i am. i am so afraid i wont be able to shower ayra with the same attention and affection that i am showing now. ayra comes from 3 years of me and ajoy being so in love and trying to conceive. when we found out we were pregnant with ayra, we were overjoyed and we showered her with endless love.. just like any parents to their first born.. 

and 2nd and subsequent child of course also came from love, but the treatment is already different betul tak. we already have the first born to think about, to raise, to teach, to care for. unlike the first born, every single thing was about them. 

sebenarnya takut tak reti nak balance my time and attention for both children. yang sorang mmg tengah demand attention, and yang baru lahir tu pun sama jugak. unless jenis bangun tuk menyusu je and then tido la hahaha. kalau the 2nd one ni mcm ayra dulu tu yg takut sgt tak reti nk divide my attention tu.. 

but one thing i pray, is that we do not abaikan ayra sofea. ayra will always be our first love. nothing can change that. 

ya Allah permudahkanlah urusan kami dalam menjaga kedua-dua amanahMu..

2nd pregnancy: 22 weeks

so yeah.. today m 22 weeks 5 days.. nk masuk 23 weeks da ler maknanya kan.. but mannnn, my tummy is wayyyyy bigger than the babycenter pic above.. 

so what is different with this pregnancy compared to the first with ayra? 

i've told you guys in my previous post that my morning sickness this time around is worst.. now that i've gained my appetite, i would say i have REALLY gained appetite and it is scaring me a lil.. m sure i will be super fat by the time i need to squeeze this baby out.. because nowadays almost everytime, after every meal, i yearn to eat ice cream. and i do. not after all meal, but almost everyday, once a day.. tat is bad right?? i will be fat sooner than i know right???

and this 2nd pregnancy is making me super rajin masak.. it has been 3-4 weeks now.. i will cook like 4-5 lauk on weekend for the weekdays.. that does not include our meal for the weekend.. tu masak fresh.. yg masak 4-5 lauk tu is for us to heat up for dinner instead of buying take aways or eating out as we used to do. kalau nk masak masa balik keje mmg tak sempat la.. smpi rumah pun da pukul 8pm kan.. takkan nk mkn kul 9pm???

but yg tak bestnya is my skin condition.. at first i thought it was dehydration due to bad morning sickness.. but i am way pass morning sickness and my skin ada je gatal sana gatal sini.. and other skin condition that i will not disclose here la.. tp pelik la sbb time ayra i didnt hv this.. my skin was boo-tiful.. hihihi.. nasib baik tak effect muka.. yet.. 

ok enough bout me.. baby? babycenter kata my baby is nearly 1 foot long.. and this baby tendang sgt kuat!! dulu time ayra at this time tak berapa rasa sgt dia gerak or tendang or siku.. but this time mmg rasa.. sometimes smpi rasa tkejut sbb rasa sgt2 kena tendang.. tu baru 22 weeks.. belum lg besar lg tu.. lasak tul.. nervous la plak kang da lahir da besar caner lak perangai nyer.. hahaha..

alright.. tu je la kut.. 

signing off.. bye.. ;)