ayra tantrum tak? ayra clingy tak?
these are questions often asked to me now that i am pregnant with baby no. 2..
tantrum is very synonym with toddlers kan? so honestly i dont know if her tantrums now is due to the pregnancy, or it is just her normal phase now..
clingy? she is already clingy by nature. so yeah, super duper clingy now.. but i did read from babycenter that this is normal for toddlers around ayra's age too.
having said that, there are times when ayra was really testing my patience. hey, i am no saint. but i try to be very patient with her. nevertheless, that does not mean my husband and i dont discipline her. she knows when she does something wrong. and we make her say sorry when she does. and made sure she knows what she did was wrong. it is not easy. this takes patience and perseverance. we know now how difficult it is to discipline our child(ren). if we give up, mmg budak tu akan naik tocang la, knowing we are not consistent kan..
still on the topic of clingy-ness and tantrum, this also shows that ayra wants attention. i personally found that whenever she acted up, and i put all my attention towards her, gomol her, tickle her, she will be smiling away and be soooo happy.. so i learnt through experience on how to handle her tantrums rather than scolding her and asking her not to act up. from my readings, rupanyer kalau marah2 dia nanti lagi anak kita ingat kita tak sayang dia..
speaking (or writing) honestly, the nearer my due date is, the more scared i am. i am so afraid i wont be able to shower ayra with the same attention and affection that i am showing now. ayra comes from 3 years of me and ajoy being so in love and trying to conceive. when we found out we were pregnant with ayra, we were overjoyed and we showered her with endless love.. just like any parents to their first born..
and 2nd and subsequent child of course also came from love, but the treatment is already different betul tak. we already have the first born to think about, to raise, to teach, to care for. unlike the first born, every single thing was about them.
sebenarnya takut tak reti nak balance my time and attention for both children. yang sorang mmg tengah demand attention, and yang baru lahir tu pun sama jugak. unless jenis bangun tuk menyusu je and then tido la hahaha. kalau the 2nd one ni mcm ayra dulu tu yg takut sgt tak reti nk divide my attention tu..
but one thing i pray, is that we do not abaikan ayra sofea. ayra will always be our first love. nothing can change that.
ya Allah permudahkanlah urusan kami dalam menjaga kedua-dua amanahMu..
