menghitung hari..

... like literally!!

actually bila da tau exactly bila nk bersalin rasa mcm lagi nervous pun ada.. kalau tak scheduled it will be a different feeling kan, like bila la nak kuar baby aku ni or something like tat.. tp bila da set tu, and when the day is approaching rasa makin dekat makin kecut perut..

as u knw, the date is set on 17th july 2013 at 10 am for baby A's arrival, which falls on next wednesday.. and today is already approaching the end of sunday.. so i kinda have like 2 more days left.. m freaking nervous!!!

 nervous as reality sets in that i will be a mother to a child soon.. being pregnant and having to hold our child in our hands and to be responsible for him/her is very2 different kan.. 

i always thought to myself - will i be a good mother? am i good enough for him/her? am i ready? can i provide whatever that is good for him/her? will he/she love me as much as i do? will i know wat to do when something happen to him/her?

gossshhhhhh soooo many questions.. 

may Allah guide me and ajoy thru this new journey.. 

^_^