so this is my journey in a nutshell so far.. today is my 44th day.. yes, last day of pantang hehehe..
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ayra's signs - honestly, m still learning them.. some of the time all the cries sounds the same! sometimes she showed the 'i want milk now mummy!' sign but when i give her my boobies she rejected it, and rupanyer dia da wiwi.. she doesnt mind it if she poops but mannnn if she wiwi, she'll cry mcm ada apa jer in her diaper hahaha..
ayra's sleeping pattern - tis changes everyday! sometimes she will be sooo good and not be fussy at night, and at times she just refuse to sleep and wanna be held all the time.. and if i get 3 hours of sleep pun da kira lama giler da hehehe..
breastfeeding - alhamdulillah despite the ups and downs, frustrations, pain, fatigue, etc ayra is still fully breastfed.. i do occasionally get fed up when m too tired.. but of course tak smpi nk give up la.. i dont know how long i get to bf ayra.. so insyaAllah will do so for as long as Allah allows me to..
another thing i learnt about bf ever since ayra was born is how tiring bf is.. its like all your energy drained as our baby drained our milk.. kdg2 smpi tak larat nk burp/change/pacify our baby.. tis is where husbands play a big role.. as it is, we hv done the huge job of feeding our baby while sacrificing our body and energy kan.. wat husbands need to know is bf is not just sua kan breast kat baby and we are relaxed.. it is totally the opposite.. tu belum masuk all the pain tat comes with bf lg kan.. sbb tu mothers ni mcm superwoman hahaha..
colic - she still has colic every other day.. doctor said its because of what i eat.. i still cant pinpoint what i eat tat made her hv colic.. i come to a point to resolve that she can get angin as easy i can.. it runs in my family.. my mum n grandma is like tat too..
growth spurts - oh boy.. when ayra was on her growth spurts, it was very very challenging.. she wanted to be fed every 30mins!!! now u know how i loss my weight.. ada 1 hari tu, i was at our house to clean up b4 moving in, tp time tu plak ayra fussy sgt2, up to a point i couldnt cook my lunch, there wasnt anything at home sbb da clearkan semua perishables b4 moving into my inlaws.. and ayra wanted to be fed every 30 mins for 7 hours.. and for tat length of time, i only ate chocolate n drank water.. badan seriously lembik giler da time tu.. tunggu ajoy balik keje n bwk food je time tu..
multitasking - thru out my 40 days of pantang i was at my in law's.. so a lot of things esp the food dept was taken care of by my wonderful MIL.. and if i wanna eat/bathe/toilet break/etc there's always someone to look after ayra in case she cries.. i hv just moved back to our own house, which means most of the time i am alone with ayra.. whc also means i hv to juggle my time and take every opportunity to do wat i need to do for the house while she's sleeping and stop everything once she wakes up for her next feeding time..
going out - going out with ayra means we hv to ensure she has been fed and changed before we leave the house or car. then she wont be cranky.. whc also means we have 1 or 2 hours to do wat we need to do before she screams for milk hehehe.. so far i've never used any of the mall's nursing room.. lum sempat lg.. most of the time i'll feed her in the car.. in short, our schedule revolves around ayra now hehe..
training ayra - so many friends and relatives hv bn telling me to train ayra to be independent.. not to hold her whenever she wants me to, and to leave her to cry provided i've fed and changed her.. mannnnn tis is challenging! hati kena kuat giler2 to leave and listen her cry like tat.. at one time, i left her in her cot (in living room) and i was in my room crying together with her.. baru 10 min da tak smpi hati n i'll end up holding her.. seeing her with tears all over her eyes breaks my heart.. tis is also a dilemma for me as i wanna hold her as much as i can because nnti before we know it she'll grow up and not want to be held anymore.. plus i've waited for her for so long.. mesti la nak pegang puas2.. m so divided here..
dressing up - so this is another challenge.. hehe.. if m not wearing any nursing top, now kena cari baju yg loose enough to be pulled up, or yg ada front button to be able to nurse ayra.. ajoy's family has a kenduri coming up next mth and all family members dpt kain.. kain yg kitaorg dpt tis time is top lain, kain lain.. so jenuh la fikir nk buat baju caner.. discuss dgn tailor mcm2 tak leh.. last2 buat kebaya je sbb sng nk nursing hehehe.. altho i hv lost a considerable amount of weight, i still hv the 4mths pregnant belly.. so bila pakai baju still nmpk mcm pregnant jugak.. lantak la kan, da ada baby, mesti la ada tummy hehehe (ayat sedapkan hati)
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watching her face when she sleeps or contented after feeding takes all the fatigue away.. i met her 44 days ago and already soooo in love with her.. nyamuk pun kena marah kalau gigit my princess hahahaha..
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p/s: ok ayra da gerak2, feeding time dah.. tis post took me 4 hours to finish in btwn feeding time and mcm2 lg hehehehe.. so sorry kalau mcm choppy ckit and kurang post blog skrg k.. :P
