ever since i got pregnant i've been determined to breastfeed my baby once she is born.. little did i know it is really not that easy even though breastfeeding has been done sejak azali lagi.. i shared a part of my breastfeeding experience in this post, and since then it is still a struggle for me..
first of all i cant remember when but i noticed one of my breasts is larger than the other one.. like dua kali ganda beza dia.. but both has sufficient milk for ayra alhamdulillah.. ayra only feeds one breast at a time, jarang sgt nak dua2 belah.. kdg2 je nak dua2 belah.. however, the bigger one sgt2 cepat bengkak.. like baru je menyusu tak smpi 30 mins da start bengkak.. and the other side, kalau da menyusu situ, lamaaaaa baru mcm nk ada susu.. so most of the times i will feed ayra on the one yg da bengkak.. sometimes i will still sumbat ayra with the smaller one.. so as a result, my breasts are not even sized now and i hate tat.. tak tau caner nk sama kan.. pls advice me..
secondly, whenever ayra feeds on the bigger one it was almost like she chomps on my breast using her teeth yg lum tumbuh lg.. saaaaaakkkkkkkiiiiiitttttttt yg teramat.. latch da betul tp sakit giler sbb bleh rasa gigi dia.. sometimes while she is feeding i was on the verge of crying.. it was unbearably painful.. pastu nnti ayra mcm tarik2 my nipple using her mouth, sometimes she'll twist her face with my nipple in her mouth.. sakit giler!!! bcoz of tat sometimes i will be sweating profusely due to the pain.. is tis normal? is it normal to feel that much pain while breastfeeding?
but when she feeds on the smaller one ok jer.. it was enjoyable experience for me..
i love her to death.. i want the best for her.. i know breastfeeding is the best choice for her.. esp since her jaundice tgh gradually decrease ni.. sbb tu m still continuing breastfeeding her despite all the pain.. but i have to admit i did hv my low point sometimes where i felt like giving up.. where i felt like mixing formula milk in a bottle seems like a better idea..
alhamdulillah ajoy is very supporting and always encourage me in breastfeeding.. i will try to breastfeed ayra for as long as i am able..
but i do appreciate it if you can lend me an advice or two on my 2 dilemmas mentioned.. tqqq...
