salam..
rasa macam syukur sgt that all three of us got thru the most challenging week ever.. here it is in a nutshell:
6 apr - 11 apr : ayra had viral fever
7 apr - 11 apr : ajoy had to work in sarawak
8 apr - 11 apr : i had to work during world halal week
10 apr : i had an interview with mara early in the morning
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ni in detail. pjg giler. skip kalau malas nk baca hehehe..
6 apr - ayra started having fever by noon i think. we had a birthday party to attend that sunday afternoon. so after giving her meds and let her sleep, she was feeling a lil better. or so we thought. her fever flared up that very afternoon. by 5pm we left the party with my SIL & BIL. ajoy had to go to office tat nite. so i was left to tend to ayra myself. that nite was a difficult nite for ayra. she couldnt sleep probably due do discomfort. vomited a lil a few times. pity her. she finally slept at 4 am. we kept on sponging her thru the night.
*the photo we took b4 the party. masa ni da demam da. but she could still smile. ^_^
7 apr - ajoy had to leave for sarawak early in the morning - for whole week. at home, i tried to get ayra's fever down a few notch. put air asam jawa on her head - twice. but no difference. had to go to work because halal week has started. sent to babysitter around 11am with a heavy heart. picked up ayra at PIL's house after work, she was really feverish. vomited twice after drinking milk that night. :(
8 apr - ayra woke up slightly better. but got fever again at babysitter's house. ibu said makan tak nak sgt.. but she can drink milk and water. at least she is not dehydrated.. ibu tried sponging her but tak kebah2.. i was already so worried. couldnt even finish my lunch. mintak tlg ibu bg ubat.. alhamdulillah kebah ckit.. but of course on and off dtg balik demam tu.. i had to overnight at hotel in kl tat nite. oh how i wish i was with her. however alhamdulillah despite her fever she could sleep thru the nite with my MIL.
9 apr - no call from my PIL. meaning ayra is manageable i hope. i think my PIL didnt want me to worry. but of course as a mother esp with a sick baby, my worry thermometer up the scale ten folds hahaha. called my MIL, she said ayra mcm panas2 lg. already sent to ibu. ajoy also mentioned if ayra's fever shoots up again, my PIL will bring her to clinic. coz this means da masuk hari ke 4 demam kan. then while working during world halal conference, ajoy said my FIL asked for ayra's IC no. masa tu muka terus pucat. i went straight to shah alam to see my baby. work doesnt matter. i had to see my baby. bila da nk smpi shah alam, i called my MIL tny ayra kat klinik mana. rupanyer ayra kat rumah ibu lg. and mintak no ic tu just as precaution jer. omg hahaha.. m so menggelabah tak igt. but still, since i was already in shah alam, went to see ayra anyway. brought her to umra and told doc demam da masuk 4th day. bukak2 je baju nmpk rashes on her body. ooooo.. i immediately knew demam apa n kenapa tak kebah2.. viral fever rupanyer. and those rashes was a relief to me. sbb maknanyer da nak baik da alhamdulillah.. doc said she'll hv diarrhea next and to bring back to clinic if she is still feverish after 1-2 days. and if she has excessive vomiting. sent ayra back to MIL's and went back to KL. gigih tul. had to be usherette for dinner event. midnight baru smpi rumah PILs house. ayra already slept in their room. i slept downstairs.
10 apr - mara interview day. woke up at 430am, mandi n got ready. breastfed ayra at 5am. panas nya badan dia.. hati berat tp kena pegi jugak interview ni. for her future jugak. so off i went around 545am. dpt la quality time for almost an hour tu.. by the time abis interview n smpi shah alam da lps zuhur. ayra time ni da kat rumah ibu dah. went home, expressed milk sbb da engorged giler. then after nego with team leader, tak yah gi klcc da yeay. sbb if pegi pun buang minyak n tol sbb dpt bertugas sejam dua je kut. went to fetch ayra around 5pm. however mlm tu badan ayra sgt panas. used our forehead thermometer, and it indicated 39deg! omg omg omg! panic dah.. pastu tat night jugak tiba2 ayra start batuk2 plak. takde plak doc kata she will be coughing. dia kata cirit birit jer. so i gave ayra her fever n cough meds. 1 hour later still panas. called ajoy n told him m bringing ayra to umra. sampai2 umra, paed da balik la plak. asked nurse to check ayra's temp. laaaa 36.9 deg je rupanyer. bongok tul la thermometer yg kat umah tu. buat org panic jer tak pasal2.. terus beli thermometer baru kat umra tu hahaha.. mlm tu byk kali check ayra's temp.. alhamdulillah never more than 37 deg..
11 apr - i had to work at mihas plak this day. but starts at 10am, so i decided to spend some time with my baby girl. she woke up with a smile. alhamdulillah. her smile was hard to come by tis week sbb dia demam kan.. and she was very active too. sent to babysitter with a happy n hopeful feeling tat she'll be fully recovered on this blessed friday. checked with babysitter and alhamdulillah panas sekejap je pagi tu and then takde demam dah.. smpi la malam when we met her at PIL's house and sampai la hari ni alhamdulillah..
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tu la citer nya.. when i found out that ajoy had to go to sarawak that very same week i have to be in KL for halal week, mula2 cam panic jugak coz mmg aku ni jenis cepat panic. but when i took a deep breath, tats when i realised Allah tgh uji kitaorg, me esp.. and Allah uji sbb tau i am capable of handling everything, and that i still have my parents in law and parents to turn to if my hands are really tied. that sometimes i have to ask for help. so ya Allah, challenge accepted and i hope all 3 of us did well going thru yr tests..
leaving ayra at my in laws house tu pun sbnrnya my last option. kalau bole mmg nak ajoy je la jaga malam2 tu. tak yah susahkan my in laws. rasa mcm da cukup menyusahkan diaorg dah. to me, nk mintak tolong tu kalau da terdesak sgt baru mintak tlg sbb kesian sgt nk susah kan diaorg. da byk kali sebut tak nak susahkan diaorg kan. mmg tats how i feel deep down. the last thing i want is to trouble them. our parents n parents in law (parents gak la tu) da cukup penat da jaga baby masa besarkan kita. and to dump my baby and expect them to jaga rasa mcm alahai kesiannyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. esp when they hv stuff to do as well. plg tak nak, because of my baby, they cant do wat they want to do.
mintak tlg amik ayra at 6pm n jaga kejap sementara kitaorg smpi shah alam (usu by 7pm da smpi) tu pun rasa masyaAllah apa punya anak la kitaorg ni menyusahkan mak bapak kitaorg. ini kan nk mintak tlg jaga smpi overnight kat sana. tp apakan daya, Allah dah susun jadual kerja kitaorg camni. so to me, maybe Allah mmg telling me tat sometimes u have to ask for help, Aina. sometimes you cant be handling everything by yourselves (ajoy & me).
so during tat week i felt really2 bersyukur that my parents in laws helped a lot. hanya Allah yang dapat balas jasa mereka.
as for my parents, mmg they will be my last last last resort due to their health problems.
ok kena ada disclaimer sikit ya. karang ada plak terasa tersentap bcoz i know some of you send your children to your parents. please remember that this is my PERSONAL CHOICE. m not judging how you raise your children, where you put your children when ure working. tats your choice. and this is my choice. you have your reasons. and wat u read above are the reasons i send ayra to a babysitter instead of asking our parents to take care of her.. bukan sebab trust issues, of course i feel our parents are the best person to care for my child, cuma tak nak susahkan our parents.
*peace*
*make love not war*
6 apr - 11 apr : ayra had viral fever
7 apr - 11 apr : ajoy had to work in sarawak
8 apr - 11 apr : i had to work during world halal week
10 apr : i had an interview with mara early in the morning
......................................
ni in detail. pjg giler. skip kalau malas nk baca hehehe..
6 apr - ayra started having fever by noon i think. we had a birthday party to attend that sunday afternoon. so after giving her meds and let her sleep, she was feeling a lil better. or so we thought. her fever flared up that very afternoon. by 5pm we left the party with my SIL & BIL. ajoy had to go to office tat nite. so i was left to tend to ayra myself. that nite was a difficult nite for ayra. she couldnt sleep probably due do discomfort. vomited a lil a few times. pity her. she finally slept at 4 am. we kept on sponging her thru the night.
7 apr - ajoy had to leave for sarawak early in the morning - for whole week. at home, i tried to get ayra's fever down a few notch. put air asam jawa on her head - twice. but no difference. had to go to work because halal week has started. sent to babysitter around 11am with a heavy heart. picked up ayra at PIL's house after work, she was really feverish. vomited twice after drinking milk that night. :(
8 apr - ayra woke up slightly better. but got fever again at babysitter's house. ibu said makan tak nak sgt.. but she can drink milk and water. at least she is not dehydrated.. ibu tried sponging her but tak kebah2.. i was already so worried. couldnt even finish my lunch. mintak tlg ibu bg ubat.. alhamdulillah kebah ckit.. but of course on and off dtg balik demam tu.. i had to overnight at hotel in kl tat nite. oh how i wish i was with her. however alhamdulillah despite her fever she could sleep thru the nite with my MIL.
9 apr - no call from my PIL. meaning ayra is manageable i hope. i think my PIL didnt want me to worry. but of course as a mother esp with a sick baby, my worry thermometer up the scale ten folds hahaha. called my MIL, she said ayra mcm panas2 lg. already sent to ibu. ajoy also mentioned if ayra's fever shoots up again, my PIL will bring her to clinic. coz this means da masuk hari ke 4 demam kan. then while working during world halal conference, ajoy said my FIL asked for ayra's IC no. masa tu muka terus pucat. i went straight to shah alam to see my baby. work doesnt matter. i had to see my baby. bila da nk smpi shah alam, i called my MIL tny ayra kat klinik mana. rupanyer ayra kat rumah ibu lg. and mintak no ic tu just as precaution jer. omg hahaha.. m so menggelabah tak igt. but still, since i was already in shah alam, went to see ayra anyway. brought her to umra and told doc demam da masuk 4th day. bukak2 je baju nmpk rashes on her body. ooooo.. i immediately knew demam apa n kenapa tak kebah2.. viral fever rupanyer. and those rashes was a relief to me. sbb maknanyer da nak baik da alhamdulillah.. doc said she'll hv diarrhea next and to bring back to clinic if she is still feverish after 1-2 days. and if she has excessive vomiting. sent ayra back to MIL's and went back to KL. gigih tul. had to be usherette for dinner event. midnight baru smpi rumah PILs house. ayra already slept in their room. i slept downstairs.
10 apr - mara interview day. woke up at 430am, mandi n got ready. breastfed ayra at 5am. panas nya badan dia.. hati berat tp kena pegi jugak interview ni. for her future jugak. so off i went around 545am. dpt la quality time for almost an hour tu.. by the time abis interview n smpi shah alam da lps zuhur. ayra time ni da kat rumah ibu dah. went home, expressed milk sbb da engorged giler. then after nego with team leader, tak yah gi klcc da yeay. sbb if pegi pun buang minyak n tol sbb dpt bertugas sejam dua je kut. went to fetch ayra around 5pm. however mlm tu badan ayra sgt panas. used our forehead thermometer, and it indicated 39deg! omg omg omg! panic dah.. pastu tat night jugak tiba2 ayra start batuk2 plak. takde plak doc kata she will be coughing. dia kata cirit birit jer. so i gave ayra her fever n cough meds. 1 hour later still panas. called ajoy n told him m bringing ayra to umra. sampai2 umra, paed da balik la plak. asked nurse to check ayra's temp. laaaa 36.9 deg je rupanyer. bongok tul la thermometer yg kat umah tu. buat org panic jer tak pasal2.. terus beli thermometer baru kat umra tu hahaha.. mlm tu byk kali check ayra's temp.. alhamdulillah never more than 37 deg..
11 apr - i had to work at mihas plak this day. but starts at 10am, so i decided to spend some time with my baby girl. she woke up with a smile. alhamdulillah. her smile was hard to come by tis week sbb dia demam kan.. and she was very active too. sent to babysitter with a happy n hopeful feeling tat she'll be fully recovered on this blessed friday. checked with babysitter and alhamdulillah panas sekejap je pagi tu and then takde demam dah.. smpi la malam when we met her at PIL's house and sampai la hari ni alhamdulillah..
.........................
tu la citer nya.. when i found out that ajoy had to go to sarawak that very same week i have to be in KL for halal week, mula2 cam panic jugak coz mmg aku ni jenis cepat panic. but when i took a deep breath, tats when i realised Allah tgh uji kitaorg, me esp.. and Allah uji sbb tau i am capable of handling everything, and that i still have my parents in law and parents to turn to if my hands are really tied. that sometimes i have to ask for help. so ya Allah, challenge accepted and i hope all 3 of us did well going thru yr tests..
leaving ayra at my in laws house tu pun sbnrnya my last option. kalau bole mmg nak ajoy je la jaga malam2 tu. tak yah susahkan my in laws. rasa mcm da cukup menyusahkan diaorg dah. to me, nk mintak tolong tu kalau da terdesak sgt baru mintak tlg sbb kesian sgt nk susah kan diaorg. da byk kali sebut tak nak susahkan diaorg kan. mmg tats how i feel deep down. the last thing i want is to trouble them. our parents n parents in law (parents gak la tu) da cukup penat da jaga baby masa besarkan kita. and to dump my baby and expect them to jaga rasa mcm alahai kesiannyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. esp when they hv stuff to do as well. plg tak nak, because of my baby, they cant do wat they want to do.
mintak tlg amik ayra at 6pm n jaga kejap sementara kitaorg smpi shah alam (usu by 7pm da smpi) tu pun rasa masyaAllah apa punya anak la kitaorg ni menyusahkan mak bapak kitaorg. ini kan nk mintak tlg jaga smpi overnight kat sana. tp apakan daya, Allah dah susun jadual kerja kitaorg camni. so to me, maybe Allah mmg telling me tat sometimes u have to ask for help, Aina. sometimes you cant be handling everything by yourselves (ajoy & me).
so during tat week i felt really2 bersyukur that my parents in laws helped a lot. hanya Allah yang dapat balas jasa mereka.
as for my parents, mmg they will be my last last last resort due to their health problems.
ok kena ada disclaimer sikit ya. karang ada plak terasa tersentap bcoz i know some of you send your children to your parents. please remember that this is my PERSONAL CHOICE. m not judging how you raise your children, where you put your children when ure working. tats your choice. and this is my choice. you have your reasons. and wat u read above are the reasons i send ayra to a babysitter instead of asking our parents to take care of her.. bukan sebab trust issues, of course i feel our parents are the best person to care for my child, cuma tak nak susahkan our parents.
*peace*
*make love not war*
